it've been more than half the year i didnt update my blog. hmm, i dont know where should i start from actually. i had my whole new life back in malaysia. i never thought of coming bck here to study.. until my dad started asking me about it. so i thought maybe there are money problem for them.. so i choose the cheaper one.. as mum told me coming bck here to study is cheaper.. so yeah, i came bck.. not to say that i dont like studying in Singapore.. i LIKE studying there but i just dont like the lifestyle there.. its tough being alone there with boring and lonely weekends..
i always hope that the choice i made to come bck here is right.. but now, i TOTALLY regret! yes! TOTALLY REGRET! i feel so much more stress coming bck here.. just dont know why! no more besties to share things or to have heart talk with like what i have in sg.. no more friends.. no more going out with friends on weekends.. i just feel so lifeless now.. other than playing piano and violin to express myself!
i always wonder y i always made the wrong choice! i ruined my own life! i just wish there's always a second chance. i wish to go bck to the boring, lonely life which i used to complain last time! i know i made a mistake, but there's no way turning bck anymore! i guess i shall face the fact and just move on! actually i always tell myself about moving on and forget the past.. but i just cant! my mind always think about it which always make me tears. it've been more than half year but yet i still cant let it down. It takes time to adapt a totally new life, but somehow it takes longer time to adapt back to the old life. YES! ITS TOTALLY TRUE! now, there's no more besties to share everything with.. so blogging is the best way for me to express everything! at least it makes me feel a little better..
tears almost everyday before i sleep. maybe thats the easiest way to make myself fall asleep after tears.
LIFE GOES ON!
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