18th birthday???

at 1st i'm like excited dat my bday is coming..
cz i'm goin to be 18 years old!
n finally i can go cinema watch 18pl show.. dun nid to curi curi masuk adi! =)
n i thought i finally can use dis chance to go out shopping wit frens..
but excitement became sadness..

i hav piano lesson tmr afternoon!!
on MY BIRTHDAY!!!
yesss.. i bet its gonna be my worst bday tmr! as i noe i'll surely get scolding frm teacher again tmr..
like juz now!
yup, i get scolding frm her juz now.. i DID PRACTICE! n she kip say no.. fineee.. u say all..
although i've been learning frm dis teacher for like 11 years d but yet i dun realli talk to her..
she bang the piano juz now.. n of cuz i juz cant stop my tears..
den kip say dis n dat..
even say "u r lazy not suit to go singapore study!"

wtf! MY PROBLEM LAR i want to go thr study!!
DUN SIMPLY CURSE ME! DATS MY DREAM!
i wanna go there study so badly!

i guess i shall go practice my piano now..
she'll throw my book out tmr if i cant play.. n even call my parents!
watever~~~
i wont so easily give up!!! i wont let u scold me on my 18th bday!
as its an important bday for me! i dun wanna hav bad memories for my 18th bday!

yes i did cried.. =(
now i'm still crying..
but i wont let u scold me on my bday!
its my big day!

worried again + appreciate.. =)

many friends started their college life adi..
majorities went to sunway.. -.-
if not sunway den taylors.. @@
but those 2 r not my choice also actually..
now i'm worried bout my applications..
i just cant wait for d results to release on 5th april!!!

okie.. my 18th bday is coming soon.. i guess dat will b my bday wish dis year??? hmm..
18th bday will be special?? dats wat my frens say.. -.-
but for me i think its normal?? hmm.. IF i got accepted to polytechnic den 18th bday will be special for me..
as it will be last bday celebration in malaysia?? cz i might be away to sg for like 6 or 8 years.. ><
aishh.. k.. k.. skip skip..

last thursday sis smsed me while i'm teaching tuition..
she said dat she hav a surprise for me on my bday.. o.O i was shock..
my bday still got one week.. n she had already planned??
till yterday nite she told me d surprised she wanna giv me..
actually is a video.. she will ply violin n record it as a video.. n also show me her cute doggie..
owhhh how sweet of herrr.. =)
but unfortunately she cant put d video in fb..
aishh.. its okie.. as long as u got heart.. love ya sis~ =D

hmm.. last nite had a drink wit themmm.. the gang again~~
they planned to celebrate my bday..
n one thing i felt weird.. i think jk planned it..
cz its weird dat i heard her asking sia "wednesday how? at where"
but wednesday i'm goin to yum cha wit lcc, mifen, jyekuen, yokewei they all..
err.. i think i noe a lil of it.. wat u all hav planned i guess.. =X
cz its likeee.. u all terbocor abit adi.. =x but it's wat i guess onli lar..  

pls giv me good news.. *.*
i realli do hope dat i get accepted.. =(

studies????

its been a long time dat i din update my blog..
sry for not updating.. =X

okey.. its march now.. got my spm results d.. nt dat good.. =(
but its out.. i cant go anything.. regret is too late also.. so i shall move on..
applied polytechnic d.. as wat i've wanted.. even my whole family hope dat i can go singapore to study..
there r 5 choices dat i've applied through online..

1st choice: Fund management & administration - Nanyang polytechnic
2nd choice: Environment design - Temasek Polytechnic
3rd choice: Interior architecture & design - Temasek Polytechnic
4th choice: Media & communication - Singapore Polytechnic
5th choice: Mass communication - Ngee Ann Polytechnic

nanyang polytechnic dat i've been thr to submit my documents..

hope dat i can get my 1st choice.. if cant, 2nd choice or 3rd choice will also good..
but if 4th or my 5th choice.. i'll consider.. cz i'm not dat interested on dat.. hmm
family had done lots for me.. dad even drove to singapore on friday to pass my documents to nanyang polytechnic as its d last day.. @@
n bro even called dad's hp while we r in singapore to ask how was it..
owhh.. touched.. *.*

i realli do hope to go singapore to study n its wat i wanted to actually..
but after applying n comments frm my fren that they will miss me it make me thinks twice..
should i go?? or shouldnt i go.. haizzz..
i always think bout..

WHAT IF I'M GOIN THR TO STUDY??
NO ONE I KNOW THR..
I'LL LIVE ALONE..
SPENDING WILL BE HIGH AS ITS 2.5 MALAYSIA RINGGIT~
I'LL MISS MY FRIENDS..
I'LL MISS MY BELOVED PIANO~
I'LL BE AWAY FRM HOME FOR 3 YEARS..
IF I GET GRANT, I'll HAVE TO STUDY DIPLOMA THERE FOR 3 YEARS den AFTER DAT I'LL CONTINUE ANOTHER 2 YEARS FOR DEGREE, N LASTLY I HAV TO WORK THR FOR 3 YEARS.. (dats if i apply for grant)
WHAT IF I HAV PROBLEM ON MY STUDIES~

its hard to get into polytechnic in singapore actually~~ n with my sucks results i think its harder to get in.. but i should say i hope to get in?? cz i dont wanna dissapoint my family..
aishhh.. but IF i realli get it.. i will surely go thr to study cz family had done lots for me..
i'll study hard over there..

but i'll hav to be away frm home like 8 YEARS!!~ 3 years for diploma, 2 years for degree n 3 years for working thr! @@
i've think bout it many times.. i'll surely miss home, miss my family, miss my friends n others.. =(

Results of the application will be released on 5th of April at 2pm.. i duno i wanna it to come fast or slow.. =X

i juz worried bout all these for last few days~ -.-
my 18th birthday is in 4 days.. wat should i wish?
wish to get into polytechnic or wat?? aishhh~~