studies????

its been a long time dat i din update my blog..
sry for not updating.. =X

okey.. its march now.. got my spm results d.. nt dat good.. =(
but its out.. i cant go anything.. regret is too late also.. so i shall move on..
applied polytechnic d.. as wat i've wanted.. even my whole family hope dat i can go singapore to study..
there r 5 choices dat i've applied through online..

1st choice: Fund management & administration - Nanyang polytechnic
2nd choice: Environment design - Temasek Polytechnic
3rd choice: Interior architecture & design - Temasek Polytechnic
4th choice: Media & communication - Singapore Polytechnic
5th choice: Mass communication - Ngee Ann Polytechnic

nanyang polytechnic dat i've been thr to submit my documents..

hope dat i can get my 1st choice.. if cant, 2nd choice or 3rd choice will also good..
but if 4th or my 5th choice.. i'll consider.. cz i'm not dat interested on dat.. hmm
family had done lots for me.. dad even drove to singapore on friday to pass my documents to nanyang polytechnic as its d last day.. @@
n bro even called dad's hp while we r in singapore to ask how was it..
owhh.. touched.. *.*

i realli do hope to go singapore to study n its wat i wanted to actually..
but after applying n comments frm my fren that they will miss me it make me thinks twice..
should i go?? or shouldnt i go.. haizzz..
i always think bout..

WHAT IF I'M GOIN THR TO STUDY??
NO ONE I KNOW THR..
I'LL LIVE ALONE..
SPENDING WILL BE HIGH AS ITS 2.5 MALAYSIA RINGGIT~
I'LL MISS MY FRIENDS..
I'LL MISS MY BELOVED PIANO~
I'LL BE AWAY FRM HOME FOR 3 YEARS..
IF I GET GRANT, I'll HAVE TO STUDY DIPLOMA THERE FOR 3 YEARS den AFTER DAT I'LL CONTINUE ANOTHER 2 YEARS FOR DEGREE, N LASTLY I HAV TO WORK THR FOR 3 YEARS.. (dats if i apply for grant)
WHAT IF I HAV PROBLEM ON MY STUDIES~

its hard to get into polytechnic in singapore actually~~ n with my sucks results i think its harder to get in.. but i should say i hope to get in?? cz i dont wanna dissapoint my family..
aishhh.. but IF i realli get it.. i will surely go thr to study cz family had done lots for me..
i'll study hard over there..

but i'll hav to be away frm home like 8 YEARS!!~ 3 years for diploma, 2 years for degree n 3 years for working thr! @@
i've think bout it many times.. i'll surely miss home, miss my family, miss my friends n others.. =(

Results of the application will be released on 5th of April at 2pm.. i duno i wanna it to come fast or slow.. =X

i juz worried bout all these for last few days~ -.-
my 18th birthday is in 4 days.. wat should i wish?
wish to get into polytechnic or wat?? aishhh~~